ummm...me

so i am blessed with the quality that when i'm tired or i guess just busy, i look bad. this is not me just being self-critical, i'm being honest. i get huge circles under my eyes, dark ones. anyone know how to get rid of those? please let me know. they aren't attractive.

the other night i was talking to isaac's dad and he asked me if i was feeling ok. i said yes. isaac explained to me the connotation of the words he used when he asked was that i looked bad. don't be shocked my american friends. this is very mexican. they are very honest or blunt, whichever way you want to look at it. i swear if you got a pimple during the day before you would look in a mirror again a mexican would probably tell you about it first. this shocked me and made me uncomfortable when i first moved there, but now i get it and i may think about it for awhile, but it doesn't affect me near as much anymore. so i explained i was tired and purely blamed it on that.

i am generally tired right now. i think i'm still adjusting to working 9-5 five days a week. but i do want to take care of myself. i think this is definitely discounted in our world. but think about it. when i take time to take care of myself i feel better about life and therefore my interactions with others are more positive. one example, when i get on the bus i always say good morning to the bus driver and thank you. there are days this is an effort for me. that's a sign. also with people close to me. example two. i talked to karen one night this week and i knew i was in a bad mood. i think it's silly how when i'm in a bad mood i generally take it out on the people closest to me...aka my sister. she probably gets the worst of it. i mean when i'm with her i can't even hide my bad mood when i get hungry. i get like a kid, instead of a 23 year old verging on adulthood. so the next day i sent her an apologetic email and she just responded "you were in a weird mood last night, but ill forgive you this once :)". it's so funny that she is one of the most impatient people i know, but she's so patient with me.

so i'm brainstorming what i can do to keep myself happier and healthier. and i challenge all of you to do something for yourself too.

step 1: do yoga. i've said this before, but i'm getting close to nailing down a time. and of course i have my hot yoga goal, which i'm shooting to try out this month or next.